Pippa: Jack asked me yesterday how I was feeling, adding 'a bit numb?' and that's exactly right. It's 4 days since our embryo was given back to us for safekeeping, I've returned to work and everything has just reverted back to normal. There's no immediate reason for worry- not until next week and I start to check every day, every hour for signs of my period. So how am I supposed to feel right now?
There's probably not an hour goes by without me thinking about our little embryo. I even caught myself singing to it the other day & Jack kisses my tummy morning and night. Small things are different, Jack normally does this thing where he taps my belly button (he has some weird habits)but since our cellular transfer, he stops himself as he goes in for 'tappage' in case it upsets the embryo. How funny is that?
I'm dreading next week and the worry it will bring and potentially the devastation of a failure. I don't at this moment, feel any different. I'm not sure if I would but some people say 'a woman knows when she is pregnant'. A sign or two would be nice to keep my spirits up but surely it's way too early?
In the meantime, it's business as usual, I'll try to enjoy the calm before the stressful storm.
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