a whole month!

Pippa: A whole month has gone by since we started this blogging. I know this as I started my period today. We were hoping that by some miracle our 1 last chance at natural conception would be a success and we could save ourselves a whole load of stress and of course, money. But hey ho, not the case, it's drugs all the way now!

It's been such a crappy day. I try not to take my moods to work but it's very difficult to hide when you are not really feeling up to the banter. Loads of chatter about my colleague's imminent baby (she's about a week overdue). Inducing this and cesarian that, yadda, yadda....
Mother nature is a real bitch too, do the periods have to come with a days worth of abdominal & back pain? I mean, just in case I might want to forget for a minute what a reproductive failure I am. I've had paracetamol and chocolate and I wish I could have wine.

I've been sniffing the Naferelin down-regulation drugs for over a week. Not sure if they are working, it's a bit of a pain as you can't judge your dose and I'm never sure if I'm doing the pump thing right or if I should be able to blow my nose afterward. I feel like I've had a cold since I started them and I'm very spotty. Just 8 more days until my next scan at the clinic, then the injections begin- what joy!

Jack & I had a fight last night, it was over the most stupid thing. We went to bed pretty angry and I just hate that feeling when you wake up and realise you've missed out on a whole night of cuddles. I could really do with one right now but he won't be home until Thurs.

So, let's see if I can find anything on TV to cheer me up...Jade:The Next Chapter- erm, no. I think I will have 1/2 a glass of wine. What the hell.